Disclaimer - I give a bit of detail in this post, for some, it may be TMI, but this is my story and I am here to share my experiences in hopes of serving anyone else who is or has been in my situation. Transparency is needed here.
This is a continuation from this post. If you haven’t read it yet you can jump on over, and then come back.
...So, I went to Planned Parenthood. I had the Pap smear done. And if you have ever had a pap smear, which I’m sure most women reading this have, you know just how uncomfortable they can be. So I'm laying on the examination bed, legs up in the stirrups, Yoni all out in the open. And the nurse is examine my yoni. She's examining my uterus and feeling on my stomach and says, "hmm, that's a little big. You're not pregnant are you?" "No!?!?” I replied, with a smidgen of uncertainty in my voice "OK, your uterus is a little bit enlarged and there's a little blood here, she says" So she goes on and tells me she thinks it could be fibroids. But the only way to be sure is to have an ultrasound.
Now this, I am familiar with this . My mom, aunts, cousins and friends of friends have all had experiences with this ‘Fibroid’. And have had surgery including hysterectomies to “remedy” the problem. And all I’m thinking is, I don’t want it!
Meanwhile, she gave me a pregnancy test just to rule out the fact that I'm not pregnant and orders me to have an ultrasound. I go to have it done next day.
A few days later I get the results and find out I have a 9 cm x 9 cm x 10 cm fibroid. Basically, I have a hard, rock-like grapefruit in my womb.
My sweet and kind nurse at Planned Parenthood advises me to find a gyno so they can speak about it to me in more depth and provide me with my possible options for dealing with the tumor.
I go on google and find a doctor, supposedly one of the best in the area. He confirmed with me that I do in fact have a fibroid. He told me that it is most likely a predunculated fibroid which means it is growing outside of my uterus connected by a stalk and it's coming somewhere off or around my left ovary. He told me what they are and basically that I need to have it removed ASAP. He orders me to have an MRI to get a better picture of exactly where it is coming from because based on his examination and the ultrasound report my fibroid was so large and it was covering my left ovary to the point where the doctor wasn’t certain the ovary was even there or functioning properly. I asked him if there were any other treatments other than surgery. He gives me a flat out no and tells me that Surgery is my only option. I’m thinking to myself, really?!?
Prior to coming to this visit I had already begun to do my own research on natural treatments and remedies for shrinking fibroids, and I read so many, and you mean to tell me this doctor wasn’t able to provide me with at least one alternative treatment?! Cutting me open was his only remedy. He orders me to have an MRI to get a more definitive picture of the fibroid and to hopefully rule this out as being a malignant tumor. I have the MRI.
So at this point it’s been about 3 weeks since my initial diagnosis…
A couple days later I get the report. The MRI confirmed that I indeed have a 9 cm mass or tumor, not something that I didn’t already know, right? But this time the doctor is much more concerned about my report. He refers me to an oncologist, who again wants to cut me open. I refuse!
At this point I decide to take matters into my own hands. I listen to my inner voice. My inner goddess. She’s telling me that surgery is not the way to go. Against everyone else's options and suggestions, I listen to my own voice and it has led me to where I am today.
Now, one year later this fibroid has brought me on an incredible journey of healing and self-discovery. Who would’ve thought that a fibroid, a tumor, a disease a sickness or any ailment could actually be a blessing? Well this certainly has turned out to be a blessing in disguise. Every day I’m learning something new about myself because of this fibroid. I’m not completely healed, but I am in the process and I am so happy to share my journey with you.